sameworldsam

 I was sick for more than a week now and could not do any form of exercise, but today was my first day back at training and I can´t even put into words how much I´ve missed it.  To me moving my body is so important and is crucial in how I feel. Without the opportunity to go crazy and really giving my all I feel so horrible from inside. I´m full of anger and self hate and it feels like a dark cloud is eating me from within. It goes that far that it even hurts to sit still. According to that issue I have pretty high testosterone levels for a woman and that needs to be worked off! First of all you do not have to be scared to go back at training at all - muscle memory is a thing! What does that mean? It means your body can rebuild possobly lost muscle quicker that it took to build it for the very first time, so you are back at where you have stopped so much qicker. I started with half of the amount of exercises and intensity as I would normally do. In some exercises, especially qu...

It seems like these are the first flowers sprouting - breaking through the dark and the cold of winter to welcome a new season or a new beginning even.  Life is throwing all the negativity a human can possibly experince at me lately and all I want to do since then is lay around and cry my eyes out. But today was different - I woke up with an inner feeling of peace and calmness. A hint of acceptance spiced up the red soup called blood rushing through my veins. I went for a walk and listened to dance music to beat myself up as I always do lately and then I saw these -  the first flowers I saw this year and you know what? They made me smile, for the first time in days! Yellow is the color of happiness, optimism, confidence and friendlyness and the only word that came to my mind was "okay". It was all I could think of. These little beauties brought me one step closer to acceptance, the very first step in moving on and leaving whatever happened behind. Destiny includes the word ...

  What can I say - no matter what I touch lately - it breaks, whatever I do - fails.  Today when I tried to film me baking banana bread my  camera dropped into some tea I had on the counter. yay like - what else can go wrong, every single day of my life is a complete disaster right now and I actually do not know how I deserve this.  My dream really is to become a good vlogger and to create great videos, because free videos on you tube have helped me so much on my journey and I want to give something back to the world, but life seems to constantly throw stones at me for no reason whenever I´m working my a$$ off the haunt my dreams.  The editing program I currently have on my laptop buggs non stop and I had to start editing the same video over and over and over again with no success until I finally gave up. It is so discouraging to never have success with anything you do.  Problems grow like weed around me and all I have to cut my way through like Indiana Jon...

     To live life at a much slower pace now due to being sick has connected me more with my true inner self again. I kind of became more mature too, it has shifted my point of view on many things. To not be able to do the things I love but also to have an excuse for the things I hate, has left more space to think deeply. You can´t successfully make your dreams come true if you don´t even know how the outcome should look like.   I feel stronger from within. Whenever you have to step out of your daily routine for whatever reason you will automatically change. You can´t step out of a tunnel full of exerpiences the same way you entered it.  Do you feel the same about this? Have you experienced something similar yet? Let us have a chat in the comments!  Sam xx  

  Hello there! Sam here – I finally set up my blog – yay! I really got into writing for already quite a while now and thought others might be interested in reading my thoughts, advice, funny and sad experiences. My idea is to keep this blog a little like a diary, but also share deep thoughts and life changing experiences. Additionally, I want to throw in some nutritional advice too from time to time, what I´ve learned for myself and how I switched my diet to become the athlete I am today. Health and Fitness truly are my passion and together with the mental health part, which should never be neglected, I´m optimistic this can become my ultimate “Health Blog”. follow me on instagram to make sure you won´t miss out on anything going on in my life: https://www.instagram.com/sameworldsam/